Not a day has gone by that I don't think of my beloved aunt who passed away mid November last year. I was away overseas and was unable to make it back in time to pay my last respect - I was deeply sadden and still am. She was like a mother to me and played an important role in my life especially when I was growing up.
|Hedy Chan Chui Siew (1949 - 2013)|
Her passing came as a shock to me... When I last saw her a month prior in Kuching, she was on remission. She managed to fight cancer for the second time and was on the road of recovery. I was expecting her to greet me at the entrance of her house when I'm due back for another visit end of November, like she said she would. Unfortunately, things does not always turn out as how we hope it would be.
My aunt was a dedicated English teacher and taught at SK Combined, Kuching for 38 years before she retired at the age of 56. Since she was never married, her children were her nieces, nephews, and also her students. Fondly remembered as 'Cikgu Hedy', she was very proud of her students and whenever she bumped into any of them, she's always oh-so-happy to see them, grown up and all.
|My final photo with Aunt Hedy (centre), 22 June 2013. Please excuse the photo quality - taken with mobile phone.|
Kind, generous, thoughtful and independent - these were just a few of her greatest virtues. She enjoyed food, cooking, Korean + Hokkien drama series, travelling and loved dogs. When she was well and active, one would often bumped into her during her regular morning walk at nearby park, grocery shopping at wet markets or just strolling around town with her friends.
Today marks her 100th day in heaven. Instead of thinking how incomplete life seems to be without her here with us, I cherish all the good times we had and all the love, guidance and sacrifices she has given. She will forever be remembered and loved by all who knew her. May she rest in eternal peace and God bless her beautiful soul. Amen.
|A life that touches others goes on forever.|
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
by David M Romano © 1993
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not here to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me...
As much as I love you;
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I'd have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I always thought
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet left to do;
It almost seemed impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday
Just for a little while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realised
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gate
I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity
And all I've promised you;
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew."
"I promised no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
And since each day's the same way,
There's no longing for the past."
"And you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true;
Though there were times you did some things,
You knew you shouldn't do."
"But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free;
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?"
When tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart...
For everytime you think of me,
I'm right there... in your heart.